SuccessWas being a porn addict really that bad? When I first discovered porn it damn sure wasn’t. The feeling of jerking off to sexy girls was amazing. Nothing in my life could compare. The tingle, the mind blowing, focus stealing sensation was unmatched. My saliva built. My heart raced. I was viewing a pair of perfect breast. Never mind the beautiful girl who graced the screen. The more I watched the more my young newly developed hormones became aroused. My mind became lost and I begged for more. I started slow and controlled but ended jerking myself frantically. Damn this girl was amazing. Her double D breasts, her petite round ass and that slit between her legs made her seem like a goddess. What a site to behold. She wasn’t touching me physically but the way she looked at me through the screen felt personal. She was with me in my mind and I became obsessed with her.

As I was controlled by her goddess like figure I noticed my sensations down under were becoming uncontrollable. I was actually doing it! What everyone told me was amazing, I was experiencing for myself and boy did they tell the truth! Then my hard paced movement was rewarded and my penis reached the point of no return. Some white, gooey liquid spat out like a dual pump water gun and that shit went all over my mother’s computer chair (sorry mom).

All That Glitters Isn’t Gold

As a young 13 year old lad I had just discovered what seemed to be gold. This fake fulfillment consumed me over the next years.It was anything but amazing and soon I craved for much more. My life as a porn addict had just begun. I did this slowly at first. At the beginning it was just once a day or so but it quickly progressed. Pretty soon i faped 3 or 4 times a day.My addiction wasn’t just confined to my mom’s computer. I watched it at school, outside, and in public areas. often I would use my phone, my best friends phones, my moms phon. Wherever i had internet access I was watching porn. Even if I didn’t have internet connection the repeated images were saved in my memory forever. IF I ever had an urge I would just fap to old videos.

Being a Porn addict was a disaster. While my best friends became pussy slayers I became a video slayer. While every teenager socialized I stayed in isolation in my room on an endless search looking for more thrilling videos. Instead of slowly growing into a healthy functioning teenager I slowly destroyed myself without even knowing it. I destroyed my man part beyond knowledgeable repair. I strangled my self-esteem and my confidence was non-existence. While in a pleasure induced frenzy I created an obstacle that I couldn’t overcome. Public ridicule by my friends was horrible. Embarrassing erectile dysfunction normally used by 50 year old fellows was disgraceful. Acne, constant fatigue and isolation severely hampered my health. I was an addict in a hopeless place that I was ashamed off. I wanted to stop but I just couldn’t…

I Finally Overcame

Just like many off you, my porn addiction controlled me. Like many others I felt unable to do anything about my situation. Was this all my life would amount too?? countless hours fapping on my laptop? No!  I would control my own life not some sexy ass girl that I would never ever see in my life. I couldn’t let this be the only thing that defined me. I was too tired of idolizing fake girls on my computer. I was too tired of sacrificing my time, health and self-esteem. I was too tired of gaining pleasure that lasted a few seconds but fed a porn addiction that did nothing to improve my life.

My recovery started slowly at first. I would often learn new facts about addiction yet still fee it during the day. Overtime however, I noticed I became stronger. Pretty soon I was disgusted by porn and was committed to destroying it once and for all. I started to join forums, start new reboots, and try new hobbies. Eventually what started out as one day free, became 2 days, then three. Pretty soon days turned to weeks and weeks became months. Now the goal for myself is years nad the rest of my life. I’m committed to living fapless till the day I die and I believe you can too

I wrote this series to show others who don’t believe in themselves a fapless life is possible for you. No matter how hopeless, lonely, or controlled you can be free. You can observe similar situations I and others had in our journey and replicate our success. Or If you have already fully recovered from porn addiction you may find comfort in reading about things you too had to deal with. So without further ado I give you my series The road to a Fapless life

 

 

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